So, I still haven't gotten my nails did, but I did manage to clean my bathroom somewhat, so minor success on the not-being-lazy front.
So work, yes, well, today wasn't a bad day, but still I feel like it's killing my soul a little bit more every day. I really wasn't meant for this line of work. Sensitive people with low self confidence who take everything personally have no business being in a call center environment where they are trying to help people with a subject that they know little to nothing about.
Oh, and the politics. As my friend Meryl likes to say, "I've never been good at drinking the company kool-aid" and I am right there with her. My department is currently going through a restructuring that is not to my liking, full of more responsibilities with the same pay, and I find that it is not in line with my "do the bare minimum" philosophy of just picking up my paycheck every other Friday and sliding beneath the radar.
Here is the scary part of this job: even though I manage to do well on a daily basis, there is that fucking test they make you take which they use to decide whether you are worthy to continue to be employed at this corporation.
The girl who sits in the cube next to me: well she just failed it. And she's been in payroll for two years. And she has her CPA. And she finished the test early and actually felt pretty confident about it. Oh, and works part time at H&R Block preparing people's taxes.
My turn is probably coming up in May. It's funny in a way; I still am not overly worried about it. I have a feeling I may do fairly well, but you never can tell. I just think it's bullshit that it doesn't matter whether or not you are good at your job on a daily basis, this company judges you on your score of a single test comprising of 50 questions on a single day of whether or not you'd be a good "fit".
On the plus side, they give you three fucking chances to pass. And, even though this girl has more experience and probably better training than I have had, I have heard her ask questions that I know the answer to off the top of my head. So that makes me more confident.
I just wish that part of this thing was over already. Even though I bitch and moan about this job, don't get me wrong: I am eternally grateful for being gainfully employed in today's economy and I feel very blessed to have been given a second chance.
So here's to passing tests...and a bit of self-confidence...and realizing that you may actually be good at something you never thought you'd excel at.
And once again, I am inspired to present to you my two (!!!) Mood Ring(tones) of the Day:
And this one, a personal fave. This actually reminds me of my Dad,who loved this musical which is kind of amusing when you actually pay attention to what they're saying and the fact that he was a devout Catholic.
So work, yes, well, today wasn't a bad day, but still I feel like it's killing my soul a little bit more every day. I really wasn't meant for this line of work. Sensitive people with low self confidence who take everything personally have no business being in a call center environment where they are trying to help people with a subject that they know little to nothing about.
Oh, and the politics. As my friend Meryl likes to say, "I've never been good at drinking the company kool-aid" and I am right there with her. My department is currently going through a restructuring that is not to my liking, full of more responsibilities with the same pay, and I find that it is not in line with my "do the bare minimum" philosophy of just picking up my paycheck every other Friday and sliding beneath the radar.
Here is the scary part of this job: even though I manage to do well on a daily basis, there is that fucking test they make you take which they use to decide whether you are worthy to continue to be employed at this corporation.
My turn is probably coming up in May. It's funny in a way; I still am not overly worried about it. I have a feeling I may do fairly well, but you never can tell. I just think it's bullshit that it doesn't matter whether or not you are good at your job on a daily basis, this company judges you on your score of a single test comprising of 50 questions on a single day of whether or not you'd be a good "fit".
On the plus side, they give you three fucking chances to pass. And, even though this girl has more experience and probably better training than I have had, I have heard her ask questions that I know the answer to off the top of my head. So that makes me more confident.
I just wish that part of this thing was over already. Even though I bitch and moan about this job, don't get me wrong: I am eternally grateful for being gainfully employed in today's economy and I feel very blessed to have been given a second chance.
So here's to passing tests...and a bit of self-confidence...and realizing that you may actually be good at something you never thought you'd excel at.
This post reminds me of the Dido song...
ReplyDeleteI drank too much last night, got bills to pay
My head just feels in pain
I missed the bus and there'll be hell today
I'm late for work again and even if I'm there
They'll all imply that I might not last the day